I don’t know about you, but some days I forget who I am. Do you ever have those days, or weeks, or months, where you seem forget who you are? Every day I take on many roles: Emery & Willow’s mom, Ryan’s wife, Sister, Daughter, Friend, Neighbor, MOPS Leader, Pastor’s wife, and even Stranger to the little girl I scared saying “Hello” to at the library this morning. Stranger Danger!
Sometimes in the mundane of the day after day of filling these many roles I often find myself forgetting who I really am. I get so busy, stressed, and distracted with everything going on around me that I forget that I am more than just those roles I fill every day.
Yesterday was one of those days. I quickly found myself feeling defeated and discouraged. I woke up and started my morning by doing my scripture writing challenge I have been doing this month. It’s from swtblessings.com, and is all about ‘Who I am in Christ”. Seems appropriate, right? The words I read spoke right to my heart yesterday morning.
“…the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world….” 1 John 4:4
As I think back on my day, I can’t believe how almost immediately it felt like the enemy was trying to distract from what I had been reading just that very morning. I have been working a lot at trying to get this MOPS (Mother of Preschoolers) program running for the fall and I am struggling to find people to say yes to serving with me. I spent my morning calling out to people. We have lived here just over 6 months now, but there are still a lot of people that I have yet to meet. Needless to say, I left many voicemails. I am sure not many people are eager to answer a number with a strange area code, because I am also very guilty of this, too. As I struggled to make contact with people or to talk with someone who was interested in serving, I found the negative voices in my head telling me I’m failing as a MOPS Leader. Thankfully I had a friend come alongside me and give me some wise encouragement to help me refocus on God’s calling and truth.
Then last night I took Emery to his Jr. Baseball game and again felt like I was just failing. I struggled to enjoy his game as I saw him attempt to hit the ball or play catch with his teammates. I also struggled as I saw him go along with the crowd of some of the boys on his team, knowing that we have had talks about those very actions many times and it still continues to be a hurdle we have to jump over and over. This left me feeling like I was failing at my role as a parent. Like I have no idea what in the world I am doing. The struggle of knowing when to give grace and when to show discipline. When discipline is the answer, then it comes down to how tough should the consequence be. I had no idea parenting would be so hard, and I know I still have a long way to go with a lot to learn. Again this morning I had a dear friend provide prayer and encouragement right where I needed it. I am so thankful for the faithful few friends I have who come alongside and provide encouragement and prayer when I need it most.
I have been reading this book called Gameplan by Sarah Harnisch with my Young Living oils team, and in it she shares about this Moses Blessing. I have read it a few times now, but today I felt lead to go back to it again during my devotion time. She talks about the blessing Moses receives in Exodus 33 in which the Lord passes by Moses.
“The blessing of being able to be in the presence of God was so profound that even other’s couldn’t look upon Moses face, and he had to wear a veil. All Moses wanted was to see God. The answer to that prayer was prolific and affected all those around him.” -Sarah Harnisch
How incredible is that? I get chills thinking about how that all took place. The people couldn’t even look upon Moses’ face without the veil because of how Holy and profound God’s blessing was upon Moses. It dramatically affected all those around Moses. Amazing!
That is my prayer. That all that God has and continues to bless and entrust me with would just create a ripple effect of God’s blessings throughout my sphere of influence and beyond. That MOPS, or the lives of my family or our children, or my little oils business, or my blog, and so on would just bless our families, our friends, our acquaintances, and the people we meet at the library or the grocery store and draw them closer to Christ or into a relationship with Him.
Today’s scripture from the Bible app also was a great reminder today.
Colossians 1:16, “ALL things have been created through Him and for Him.”
I am not just those everyday roles that I fill, but I am a daughter of the Most High King. I was created by Him with purpose, and I am treasured and adored. Yes, I am a mom, pastor’s wife, MOPS Leader, wife, etc., but I am more than that. We each have our own important roles, but we were ultimately created for the most important role. We were created to be used by and for Christ to bring glory to Him, to bring freedom and hope that only comes from a relationship with Christ.
I know God made it very clear that I needed to lead this MOPS group, so I am going to trust Him to bless it and provide the right people to create the ripple effect into the lives of these moms and our community.
God also made it very clear that I am to be Emery and Willow’s mom. It was quite the challenge to have these two little miracles, and I know that being their mommy is one of the greatest of God’s blessings. They bring so much joy to our little family and also a great deal of challenges. But I know that it is through these challenges of parenting and being their mom that God will continue to grow my faith and chip away at my character to make me more like Him.
So don’t grow weary. Remember that you are also created by our Heavenly Father with purpose. Whatever roles you find yourself in, don’t forget that your most important role is to be a reflection of Him. Allow the blessings of God and His presence be so evident in your life that it creates a dramatic ripple effect.
I’m praying for you, dear sisters. Wherever you are in this journey of life and motherhood I pray you are encouraged, blessed, and reminded of who you truly are in Christ. May you find a freedom in Him that is so contagious that the people around you are compelled to find their own liberation.
Until next time, where is motherhood taking you?
Moses Blessing: https://oilabilityteam.com/the-moses-blessing/
Gameplan by Sarah Harnish: http://amzn.to/2sTB9EB